ok wow u found the most secret page on my website 🤯

this is where i dump alllll my random thoughts

and weird stories from my life

ur in for a ride…

the slug story 😭 

this was the moment I felt the most fear in my life.

it was worse than the fear I felt when I almost got shot in Portland

(the next story).

so I was 10 years old at my friend’s house.

it had just rained and the sun was coming out.

we were in her backyard.

the vibes were good.

suddenly…

I saw something in my friend’s hands.

a black, slimy thing.

I screamed and ran inside,

away from the slug in my friend’s hands.

she watched me from behind the window,

smiled,

and threw the slug right at my face.

I still remember the thud when it hit the window.

but my ordeal wasn’t over yet…

my friend ran inside with slug slime all over her hands,

and chased me around the house.

I remember running up the stairs,

trying to find rooms to hide in,

with just 1 thought in my mind:

I need to hide.

I wasn’t thinking about what I was gonna have for dinner that night,

or whether I should still stay friends with this person.

my only thought was to hide.

and that’s the last thing I remember from that day…

I think I blocked the rest from my memory.

lessons from my slug trauma

I’m telling this story because I do a less extreme version of it to be productive.

I focus on 1 big thing.

when I was running from my friend,

I only thought about hiding.

when I was creating my life tracking course,

I only thought about the course.

I had 2 tabs open every day:

my Notion page for planning this course,

and my time tracker to see how much time I spent working on the course.

before I focused on the course,

I was passively letting time go without being intentional about my progress.

I would check my emails,

check my DMs,

and write my weekly newsletters.

but after making this course my 1 big thing for 2-3 weeks,

I was able to launch to over 100 students,

and make over $20,000.

and it’s not just the accomplishments or what you can get done.

It’s the peace of mind too…

I used to feel like my brain had 100 tabs open.

after picking a focus,

I felt like I had only 1 tab open.

and I was consistently making progress on it to improve every day.

how i almost got shot

“who’s setting off fireworks at 4pm?”

that was my first thought when I heard gunshots

while waiting in line for some vegan doughnuts.

(I’m Canadian and I was visiting Portland for a concert…called Trinity of Terror…lol)

I only realized what was happening when I saw someone running,

and someone else pulled me to the ground.

we got into the doughnut shop and huddled there for an hour.

for some reason I took this pic while we were all crouched in the corner 💀 

while waiting, I was thinking…

“if my life ended today, would I have any regrets?”

I knew I wouldn’t.

I felt like I truly lived life to the fullest.

that’s why I didn’t really feel any fear in the moment -

I was just thinking about how grateful I was for my fun memories.

(my friends didn’t think it was gratitude though…they said it was copium.)

when we finally felt it was safe to come out,

everyone got free doughnuts.

it was a delicious reward for the trauma we endured 😭 

right after this happened, we went to an arcade.

my boyfriend (now ex) (for unrelated reasons)

chose to play a SHOOTING game 😭 

after that, I stopped living like my time was infinite

I realized my time is the most precious thing I have (and will never get back).

earlier that year (August 2022) I started tracking my time 24/7

because I didn’t know where all my time was going (spoiler alert: it was bc of doomscrolling).

then, I took years to build out more robust systems:

• reflecting on whether my habits aligned with my goals every week

• celebrating my wins every month

• creating a yearly photo board to help me realize I spent my year well

and now I’m happier than I’ve ever been.

sometimes I feel like I manifested my dream life,

because I can share weird things I’m passionate about with you.

but it wasn’t really manifestation.

it was my own daily, consistent actions and habits that got me here.

and since I’m a lazy girl,

those consistent habits only happened because I set up systems to make them easy to do.

I share these systems in all my content, from my YouTube to newsletter to my course.

I want to leave you with a challenge…

what’s 1 small action you can take every day

that’ll lead you to the person you want to become?

if you ask yourself that question daily, you’ll already make huge progress.

but if you need more support,

my course - and inbox - is always here for you.

just email me at [email protected] 🫶